No Matter the seriousness of our desperation in life, God is with us and God is working in the background to better our situation. God’s solution may not always appear to be the solution we are seeking or expecting, it may take us in a totally different direction from that which we desire to be going but we must have faith and believe that God knows what is best, not merely what is better for God will never ask us to accept or become second best.
Brother Jesus my Lord:
For 60 years, Christmas was a very special occasion I looked forward to. Christmas was always filled with joy and happiness for me.
No, not for the gifts I got, but for the gift I gave over the past 48 years as a choir singer, for as a choir singer with two different choirs I was priviledged to be able to sing for God praising God and praising you Brother Jesus.
This has not and will not change but my happiness has, because I am unemployed now 4 years, and ashamed for myself for not being a good husband and provider, and I feel like somehow I let God down. I admit it, I am feeling sorry for me, and probably without just cause.
Lord Jesus, help me for I know not which way to turn. You know me Lord it is I David, your loving brother whom you adopted years back. Jesus I am soon to be 64 years of age, a mere second in time I know.
My brother Jesus for 45 years now I have done my best to earn my way in the employ of others for I know that our Father does not approve any child of His being slothful.
Dear brother Jesus, I am the husband, which makes this even more important because as the husband I have a duty to earn a living and to ensure that my wife of nearly 25 years is properly financially taken care of, instead my wife is taking care of things.
Jesus my brother for 21 years of the now 25 years, in marriage, I have fulfilled this obligation faithfully, to show our Father that I am not slothful and to prove myself as a worthy child of God, and a husband, but for the past almost 4 years I have failed our Father, and failed my beloved wife, for I have been unemployed this time. Worse yet, I have failed you Jesus my Brother.
Lord Jesus I feel so inadequate both as a child of Almighty God, as a husband, and as a man, as a matter of fact I cannot even look upon myself as a man anymore for I have failed in my responsibilities.
Yes indeed yes, I have asked, even begged our Father God to help me with finding new employment. I know and trust that He is doing His very best to do this so I remain patient, and hopeful that He will help me find something. If 4 years of waiting is not patience I don’t know what is. Still I will wait on Our Father and His Grace in this matter, knowing that His planning and timing is best.
No, I have not simply sat at home, not trying. I go out and submit applications even in places where I think I can best be of use, even donut shops. No, I have not refused any legal work, as a matter of fact though I have not been offered any.
Yes I know that our Father is using me with the inspiration of Holy Spirit to write for our Father during this down time, while I am unemployed, still I work in His service. It is a priviledge to be permitted to honor Him and you, as I wait for employment. Serving our Father, writing His inspired words for others brings such satisfaction, but it doesn’t help pay the bills.
Dear Jesus my brother I don’t know anymore which way to turn. It is so difficult for me to be not working and to have to see my poor darling wife have to go out and struggle, coming home exhausted from her job as a special care giver, just so that we can meet our monthly bills. It just doesn’t seem right or fair. I know that our wedding vows state for better or for worse, but lately my wife is really getting the worse because her husband is now dependant upon her.
Dear Brother Jesus I am reaching out to you, just as the woman who reached to touch the hem of your robe did, knowing that with but a touch of your robe, my depressed feeling will disappear. Knowing that Our Father hears your requests your prayers in a different light than he does ours simply because we sin and you do not.
Brother Jesus even though I ask for myself, more importantly I ask for the sake of your sister and my wife, to ease her burden, through our Father finding employment for me and hopefully finding it soon. If wanting to be a good husband and provider is pride, then mark me guilty of pride, but punish my wife no longer with the hardship of being the sole earner for our family, permit me to work once again as a bread winner and a husband.
Brother Jesus I place this into your capable hands, knowing and believing that you will help in which ever way is best. In the mean time, I am here to serve our Father God, as I write that which my brother Holy Spirit asks of me to write, to spread our Father’s Holy Word. AMEN!